yawnz~

well, guess i'm finalli healthy liaoz...

ytd went to gym... did alittle lesser den b4... scared i cant tahan...

Azhal forget to bring his admin card... so i rushed to sch like a mad dog thinkin of a plan... the security guard dun gif face one lorz... i go sports hall every wk she still dun trust me... sianz... aniwayz... managed to 'hong' her to let him in... phew... dinner wid TC n Dorcas at AMK S11... I HAD THE WORSE JAP FOOD... KENNA SAI MAN... SERIOUSLY...

coffee at A-star was as good as usual... KOPI GAO... SHIOK AHZ...

2day is tues... went to sch in the evenin... suppose to swim... but IT RAINED LAHZ~ in the end i went sch to take a shower -.-"... went to LJS to eat... den bought a new earpiece... now my IPOD feels as good as ever...

tml guitar trainin... tao gehs again... sianz... =X

aniwayz... here are some random pics... cheers...

[[ Jeremy ]]
music fills my life~

damn...

man...

you are sick, u cant taste food well, n u are eating lunch... what could suck???

lousy porridge bought from Northpoint foodcourt wid good quality MSG... couldnt taste aniting else but the MSG... SO STRONG LAHZ!!! sheesh... i swear i'm not gonna buy from tat shop again... argh...

feelin so much better now i guess... onli down to the sorethroat i guess... everythin feels alrite... later most probz goin to guitar club... n tml i guess i can make it for the sec 3 camp... haha...

off to eat my medicine... chao

[[ Jeremy ]]
I HATE SORE THROATS!!!

damn~ i'm freakin sick... woke up in the mornin not able to sit up... fall over each time i tried... den everythin seems more ORANGE n DARK den it used to be... slept thruout the whole day... many calls n msg come in... but i haf difficulties returnin... damn...

took 2 panadols to kill the pain n went to slp after lunch abt 1pm... den woke up at abt 6pm for dinner... PLAIN PORRIDGE for dinner... how long has it been since i ate that...

went to see the doc juz now... wen i walked into the room, he was like WOAH~ high fever... sadly enuff he was right... 38.2C fever wid flu, cough n sore throat... my worse hated combination... guess i might needa rot at home tml to recuperate... not sure if i can go for guitar club tml... skippin 1 day of camp for guitar club~ MUAHAHAHAHA... den thurs if i'm well n dandy, i'll go for the camp... wanna relac there... check out the sec 3 batch... n catch up wid the teachers n student helpers...

fri is lunch/tea wid the director of SBM... hopefulli i'm all well for that XD

k lahz... guess i hafta rest for now... wanna die liaoz... sat still got rugby... haiz...

n 1 thing... THAT NURSE told me on msn tat sore throat is a sign of fever... N SHE WAS RIGHT... grrrrr... ahh... aniwayz... gotta thank her for warnin me too... haha...

[[ Jeremy ]]
looks like i'm not the onli one who can hit 38.2C XD

Face down to the ground

my new fave song... kinda meaningful haha... credits to Arvind who intro me the song... VERI NICE~

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Face Down

Hey, girl, you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.

Cover up with makeup in the mirror
tell yourself, it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone
and then he swears he loves you.

Chorus
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever, you will surely drown
I see what's going down.

I see the way you go
and say you're right again,
say you're right again
heed my lecture

Chorus
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

Bridge
Face down in the dirt, she said,
"This doesn't hurt", she said,
"I finally had enough."[x2]

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
it's coming round again.

Chorus
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.[x2]

Bridge
Face down in the dirt, she said,
"This doesn't hurt", she said,
"I finally had enough."

yepz... well i'm learnin the song... juz needa remember the lyrics now...

[[ Jeremy ]]
how come age is alwayz the onli criteria i fail???

after a long time

how long haven i been updatin???

1 wk... haiz...

oh wells...

mon n tues is presentation day... n tuesday was the rush-iest mornin i had... did the whole proj wrongly... n we had to RUSH!!! damn... but we did it well in the end, so NOWS THE HOLIDAY!!!

wed was FUN... guitar club rox man... lotsa pros around... all playin diff stuff... well pure strummin for me onli... the rest lik khyril, kinky man rocked the room wid thier scaling n plucking... cool man...

thurs was rugby after a long time... even wid absence i did quite well... n i miss the damn team man... haha... we saw our first match at the YCK stadium... Singapore vs Hong Kong... damn big man their rubgy guys... freak... dunno wen we can reach tat standard... haha... oh wells...

fri was... cant remember... oh!!! did nothin... den evenin go sch for a few matches of DoTa den dinner wid Teng Chung...

ytd was another rugby day... performance of the whole team was improving... guess we gonna kick YJCs ASSES!!! i was appointed hooker(wad a name)... but was a nice post... haha...

ytd lunch/tea/dinner was at lao bei jing wid Arvind, Teng Chung, Daryl, John n his mom... JASMINE PANG SEH LORZ~ haha... aniwayz... had a great lunch... den went to Paulanders for beer... GREAT BEER... smooth n sweet...

knocked out last nite... n now i juz woke up... n i'm still damn tired... dun feel like talkin much... anione can make me talk now???

n i tink i'm gonna bring my guitar to Pulau Ubin for the camp...

[[ Jeremy ]]
maciam damn emo now sia...

random

13/5/07

everything seems to be back the way it was suppose to be a few months ago liaoz...

parents are back at home again... (but i never NEVER see them talked yet)
eating nice food( indian vege meal is GOOD~ )

but as usual my appetite was on the low... cant seem to finish everythin...seems like i'm slowly loosing weight... i'm proud of my achievement XD

n guess who had a makeover???

well... not me of course... Lenice changed quite abit since the last time i saw her ( or flared at her )... well, we never fail to go back to find each other after a bicker... went out to haf dinner n hanged out for the night... someone said this on the phone...

' Eh, your friend very noisy on the phone '

haha... oh well...

ever saw a ghost???

brrrrrrrr... hair was freaky~ but wad the heck...

Welson n I went to Bras Basar the other day to restring my racket n get shuttlecocks... n saw sumthin damn cool...

figurines made up of coils of metal... they resemble dragons holding spears... DAMN NICE LAHZ!!! wanted to check oout how much is it... but its out of stock... onli sold at china town... saded...

well, i'm off to do my projz... tata~

[[ Jeremy ]]
i was wrong about everything... n basket~ bluff me ahz...

Badminton

man... a girl beat me in singles... OMG MAN~ grrrrrrrr... but i gotta admit... she is good... but of course she plays for an organization... haha... n i play for my friends... XD

well... tml rugby n badminton... i wonder how well i gonna slp tml nite...

ytd dreamt of a golden retriever that i found... she was small n cute... den i took care of it till she became so beautiful... went everywhere wid her... haha...

man... i gotta dream more 2nite...

[[ Jeremy ]]

thanks

thnx for those who tried to cheer up... appreciate it...

kinda strange... sometimes i feel that friends are more important than family/relatives... but i noe this thinkin is wrong... many would scold me for sayin it this way...

well... i'm juz glad that there are so many peeps out there who realli bothered and cared lahz... you dont need a huge bunch of pple to cheer u up... just 1 is enuff...

ahh aniwayz... cant finish my food nowadays... damn sad sad sad... 200gm steak wid fries oso cant finish.... SO MUCH FRIES LEFT!!!

maybe diminishing marginal utility is setting in... not realli eat like to eat alot now...

SENTOSA~ a place for me to relax after a whole night's horror...

tanned, played frisbee, played volleyball, drank, swam, chatted my day away...

TC had a hard time choosin which volleyball he prefered... well... left is mine, right is Huai Xin's...

hmm... Huai Xin... still remembered way back till the say we knew each other durin sec sch... haha... she got the studious look wid her glasses and her short wavy hair tied up 2gether... alwayz sitting in class tokin to the same pple... playin softball all day long... talking to Mr Yeo n the project officers... haha... den alwayz kenna matchmake by Mr Yeo... those were the days in sch man... miss those days...

well... after a long day, finali get to haf proper rest... well... i was tossing n turnin too much on the bed, so Silver had to slp on my bag on the floor...poor cat... gotta suffer nt slpin on a proper bed(but cats dun realli slp on bed right?) well... i was late for proj dicussion due to some unforseen circumstances... GRRRRRRRRR...

ah... i'll juz go thru everyday a step at a time, and i hope it gets better as we go(sounds like a song)...

[[ Jeremy ]]
at least she was there to chat wid me day n nite... thnx =)

to mom and dad

Ever since young, I've not known how to speak up. I never had courage to speak up. I've always have trouble telling you what I feel about everything.

I've been brought up by grandma. ALL ALONG I only talked to her, almost never to both of you. After grandma passed away, I became this kid that confides everythin to himself. Everyday I would pray to God that everything would be fine. Every single day I told myself that everything would be fine. I was naive back then.


To dad,

I always sat down beside mom asking, 'how come dad is not at home at night and only comes home very late at night?' Mom would just smile at me and say you are busy. Always fall asleep on your side of your bed while waiting for you to come home. Then you would carry my back to my bed. Everytime when i wake up, first thing i do is to enter your room to greet you, all because I seldom see you at home. Used to be so happy just to see you in the morning.

But now, i'm blogging here in the living room while hearing the loud angry conversation that echo out through the night. You never scolded me, true. You never restricted me, true. But I just want to clarify something. Do you care about me then?

I'm like this fish in a bowl, given lots of space to swim about. Unknowingly i get fed by this unknown being that drops pellet and flakes of food for me. You change the water in the bowl from time to time. I feel very comfortable. BUT, I don't know this being that takes care of me.



To mom,

after grandma passed away, you became the closest person that I have. You bothered about my studies, you bothered about my social life, you bothered about my future.

But what you did was a little too much. You cared too much. You restricted me. In fact you tied me too hard to your apron. I seldom get to go out with my friends. I only went out with my friends only when I was sec 3. Hell, the only thing you allowed me to do is to study. Got me tuition teachers time and again, and you knew that i didnt like it. You never given me trust since young, all the way till now.

Still remember back then, the time you keep accusing me of stealing. You didnt trust me, you didnt allowed me to tell u the truth. You keep accusing me of lying time and time again. You even slapped me in the face on several occasions. I wonder who taught me all the wrong values. You told me to cover up a lie that you wanted to tell dad, you told me to keep the money I found on the floor. It's things like these that made me to what I am today.



Whatever happened today, everyone is at fault. I keep hearing dad using the slippery slope technic to make it seems that its not his fault. And I keep hearing mom over emphasizing on whatever she says. Somehow things are not going as well what I used to pray for since kindergarden.

I got my own views, I got my own thoughts. I don't want to interfere with anything tonight. If you guys cant end your kiddish arguement, I will have to voice out everything tomorrow.

[[ Jeremy ]]
Saddened by reality. Part 1.

TGIF

DAMN~ TGIF~ woohoo~

lets see now... many things happened... i cant finish my food...

fried hokkien mee... N I CANT FINISH!!! damn...

i cant seem to finish my food nowadays... i cant finish Trisna's 1/2 sandwich after i finish mine... MY APPETITE IS DROPPING!!! is it good???

then there was...
frisbee trainin on monday...
rotting on tuesday...
movies wid AF0702 on wednesday...
ICA rehearsal(DISAPPOINTING) on thursday...
and ICA today...

aniwayz... a gd cam phone takes good pictures...

yepz... lookin good XD

2day was kinda late for class... class started at 9 n i juz woke up at 9... WOOTS!!! but even if i go to sch, i cant do aniting coz my computer was down... so juz used my lappy...i'm off to watch TV now... CELEBRITY deathmatch...

buaizzzzzz...

[[ Jeremy ]]
i'm kinda tired...